Guys do you realize we will be in 2016, in 2 days. Woah so fast, really! How is your life, friends? I will talk about my life summary in 2015. A lot of remember-able moments happened. Mostly, happy? I guess.
I found myself is really troublesome to anybody, 2015 made me realize i'm annoying af. Huh.
I lost my friends, and its kinda sad reality (you guys have to grateful because until now i still called you friends) i realize that semakin dewasa bukan masalah seberapa banyak teman yang kamu punya, tapi ada gak teman yang benar-benar mempercayai dirimu, membuat kamu semakin kuat, supporting each other, give each other motivation, that's it. It's hard for me to trust anybody, so freakin hard. Bahkan gue dengan sahabat sendiri juga, lebih baik hal-hal tersebut hanya untuk sendiri. Why? I dont want anybody pity me, this is my own bussiness let me trust myself to solve this, can you? Terus gue juga inget 2015 nih, penuh dengan moment kayak 'why did you have to do this to me?' contohnya, gue punya masalah, terus teman-teman -yang ngakunya mereka teman gue sih- ngebantuin gue buat solve this problem, but turn out they made the problem even worst!!!!!!!!!!! Tch. WHAT TF.
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2015 made me realize that i'm kinda introvert? i have promised to myself, in the 2nd year of senior high school, i will try to show up and open up, but still i can't. In the middle school, i have known as one of the active students. i even joined the student council. SHS is different, there is no time for 'leha-leha' the teachers always remind us to prepare our national exam. IT KINDA ANNOYS ME SOMETIMES. Gue juga pengen aktif lagi gitu, kayak pas jaman smp, yang sibuk kesana-kemari ngehadirin rapat osis-mpk, datang ke acara penting, terus jadi dikenal sama guru. Yes, i miss my name being called by the teachers. I miss those time when the teachers had a trouble, they called me, they asked for help, i miss being known by the teachers. Huh. Sekarang kalau mau dikenal sama guru ya lo harus jadi anak osis dulu, jadi anak pintar yang selalu ikut lomba, jadi class-clown (badut kelas) yang hobinya ngelawak terus, atau kalau lo mau jadi anak yg buat masalah, ya gak sih? Apalah gue cuma remah-remah penghapus karet yang menganggu, yang kalo ditiup terbang kemana-mana. Gue kalau di kelas ya hobinya ya tidur sekarang, dulu sih iya iya aja masih asik. Sekarang? Introvert banget gue. Eh boleh dibilang ambivert sih, gue kadang juga main sama temen-temen yang otaknya sama kayak gue, ngablu HAHAHAHAHA.
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2015 made me want to get a job, and get a lot of money. Wth i want everything but i dont have enough money to buy those things. But, the sure thing is kerja tidak segampang yang lo kira kan? Nah. Susah juga nyari duit ya? Gue abis liburan, dan gue nyadar aja, there are two different things, the one who get a better life, and the one who dont. Pernah nyadar gak, pas lagi makan di restaurant aja, kita bisa enak-enak makan, belum tentu pelayan yang ada di restaurant itu pernah makan apapun yang ada di menu restaurant itu. They are working so hard just for the money, so they can survive their life. Ketika lo enak-enak milih baju di Department Store or whatever, terus beli banyak baju sampai berjuta-juta, pernah ngebayangin gak office boy/girl yang kerja buat tempat itu, ngepel, nyapu, dan lain-lain, pengen juga membelikan baju atau sesuatu darisana dan membawanya pulang? Katakan saja itu untuk anaknya? There are always two side guys, so be grateful if you are in the better side. (Whoa how did i even say those thing?)
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2015 still, i havent get a bf. (It's okay va) Too busy or do i look not attractive, do i?
I guess both reason are right. I'm busy-ing myself, and i dont look attractive, that's it. Or is it because i dont look like i'm opening up myself to anybody? I dont know. Or is it because im too busy fangirling over my bias(es). Lol, if it's true. Eventho' im busy fangirling over, but still my bf is on the top (CHESSY) (MASA SIH VA??????) (HAHAHAHAHA) I'm trying to give my attention more to him. Yang gue tanya sekarang, mana?????? boyfriend???? my ass. 2015 i'm free as a bird, i can stay on the wherever nest that i want, istilahnya kan? hAHAHA
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Last but not least, i want to say 'Thank You, God for another chance, I'm still alive in 2015, I hope in 2016 will full of happy-grateful moments. I hope in 2016 i still have a looooooooooooooooooooong life, panjang umur, sehat terus, pokoknya yang baik-baik ada di 2016 dan resolusi tercapai semua :)'
